Mama I’m Coming Home

I just woke up from a dream where I was living in a weird alternate universe where people had to sacrifice body parts to a giant grizzly bear monster if we made certain people in charge (not sure who) angry. But finger nails counted. So I was hiding behind a couch while an older woman who had agreed to the system yelled at me for not fully participating while she extolled the virtues of this monster that was basically chewing her foot off. I flicked a fingernail at it then basically jumped down flight after flight of stairs as it chased me. At the same time it wanted to destroy me, it was impressed by my ability to flee. I made it out. The gate to the house had a rabbit on it. So of course I made it out. ;)

What on earth made me dream a dream like that? Maybe it was because I took allergy medicine right before bed.

Anyway. If you want to wake up feeling good, roll over in your bed and push play on the Lester Bangs playlist that the Creem Magazine Spotify account put out the other day. Holy fudge, that thing is good. It's giving me life right now.

Maybe it was the dream. Maybe it's the music. But it made me think okay, I really wish I could throw on a t-shirt, shorts and sandals and walk out the door to be in Austin right now. Get my dog and my little girl and grab an iced coffee and a breakfast taco and go swimming today. Go to half price books. See what my friends are up to. Like what the heck am I still doing here? It's lame. 

Sigh.

Both my ex and my mom say we should all wait one more year to save up money and get everything lined up before leaving because it was so expensive to get here. 

I say I will give it UP TO one year because I have faith that the Creator will come through before then. Her baby figured out what she needed to figure out and now She's gonna let her manifest her way back home.

My path is lit by strings of twinkling lights. I can't wait to get home. I can't wait to go to Radio. I can't wait to drink honeysuckle nectar. I'm ready, Mama. 


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