I promised Niki

Niki made me promise that she'd never lose me.

She's worried I'm going to off myself.

She was crying.

I promised, with one caveat. If, God forbid, something should happen to my kid, then I'm out. No kid, no me, that's the deal. 

All I care about is that the kid doesn't suffer. And she loves me so I gotta stick around. 

That's the number one reason to never have kids. Because then you can't kill yourself.

It's fine. Time is passing. I should never have been born, and one day it will be like that's what happened. Eventually.

I would like to leave this place now. I would like to pack my bags and go. On an airplane, with a tear in my eye. I used to live in dreams and that was much better. 

I'm fine. Beep boop beep.

I promised Niki.