I promised Niki
Niki made me promise that she'd never lose me.
She's worried I'm going to off myself.
She was crying.
I promised, with one caveat. If, God forbid, something should happen to my kid, then I'm out. No kid, no me, that's the deal.
All I care about is that the kid doesn't suffer. And she loves me so I gotta stick around.
That's the number one reason to never have kids. Because then you can't kill yourself.
It's fine. Time is passing. I should never have been born, and one day it will be like that's what happened. Eventually.
I would like to leave this place now. I would like to pack my bags and go. On an airplane, with a tear in my eye. I used to live in dreams and that was much better.
I'm fine. Beep boop beep.
I promised Niki.